Yesterday morning as I drove into work (which I rarely do but GOtransit service on my line was suspended because of a fire investigation – boo!), I looked over at Lake Ontario and saw the most peaceful and calm sunrise. The way the light was hitting the water gave the sky this peachy-pink, warm glow that put me at ease. It was a great way to start my day, especially since it was my first day on weight watchers. It set the tone for me, and I did awesome with my points and I had a pretty productive day at work to boot.

“What an amazing photo that would make” I thought. I even considered pulling over and snapping a shot…with my phone…

I currently am borrowing – heheh – my boyfriend’s DSLR camera, but I never carry it around. I rarely go a week without spotting some strange things around the city that I would love to blog about, but find it challenging to blog about something if I can’t include a picture. After all they do say that a picture speaks a thousand words.

The DSLR takes fabulous pictures, but a) I don’t know how to use it and take advantage of its features and b) it is just a bit too big for me to be taking around the city.

I’d love to invest in a smaller, good quality camera for these random photo-ops that present themselves to me. Is it too late to ask Santa, haha? Boxing day would have been the day to snatch up a good deal but, who knows?! I’m definitely browsing around for something reasonably priced, so if you know a good deal or about cameras…leave a comment below!

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When a minute feels like an hour

It’s just one of those days.


Actually, its been like this all week. It is quiet at work and the perfect opportunity to catch up on tasks and prepare for everyone’s (everyone important, that is) return next week. It is going to be a crazy week next week, with all the directors, managers, and stakeholders returning to work from the holidays. It has definitely been nice to sit at my desk, with only few, minor, and welcomed distractions, to just get things done.


Today, though, every minute feels like an hour. Can it be nap-time? No? What about home-time? I caught myself drooling over lunch earlier, then I glanced down at the time and it was only 10am-ish. I’m hungry.


Why am I hungry? I had breakfast at about 9am, stuck in traffic and terribly late for work.


Bored? Tired? Emotional? Stressed?

Generally, these are the reasons why I mindlessly binge on food.


Pass me my KleanKanteen. I’ll hydrate first.


I think part of the problem is that I’m so overwhelmed with work that it’s hard to actually do work. Weird, right? So much to do but don’t know what to do?


Obviously the answer is to “do” blog, why wouldn’t it be? 😉


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Hello, 2012!

I can’t believe that 2012 is here! Happy New Year!!!


2011 was quite the year. I had a good year, if you exclude the stressful health stuff I had to deal with. In 2011 I turned 23, shared my 2 year anniversary with my boyfriend, transitioned from student into a working professional, got published, planned and enjoyed my sister’s wedding. It was fun.


I’d like to post about some of my health issues soon, but I just don’t want to get overwhelmed thinking about it. These issues are a very real part of my life and to leave them out would just not be right. When I’m ready, I’ll blog about it.


I’m really excited for 2012; I have a feeling that its going to be a great year. For the first time since I was much younger, I’ve made a list of things that I’d like to accomplish this year. I blogged about it here.


It is quite late in the GTA right now. I spent the day with my boyfriend, having a private New Years celebration. It was quite nice. Tomorrow we’re both back to work. I applied to some job postings during the holidays and, as people get back into the swing of daily work, I hope to hear back from some of these positions. Wish me luck!



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Twelve in 2012.

I can’t believe that the year is over. I’ve had a pretty good year, health complications aside. The highlights would definitely have to be my sister’s marriage and my transition from student to working professional.

With 2012 only hours away I thought I should comment on my “New Years Resolutions”. I never really sit down and think about the things I want to do in the coming year, but I for sure think to myself “ohh, wouldn’t it be nice if…”. The problem I’ve found in the past is that the excitement or motivation to actually pursue those “ohhh-ahhhh” thoughts quickly fizzles by the time February rolls around. That stinks.

My recent health complications and cancer scares have left me not just motivated to make change but really reflecting (“if I don’t improve my health…”). I am a list kind of girl; as a student, as a part time employee, a working professional, as just an everyday girl, lists help me get things done. It seems natural to make a list of things I want to accomplish in 2012…

…sooooo, without further adieu here is my Twelve in 2012, the twelve things I wish to accomplish or chip at this coming year:

  1. Find a full-time, permanent job…that I enjoy. Right now I am working fulltime in a hospital in Toronto as a researcher. I love what I’m doing and see myself pursing the same kind of work in the future. The only problem is that the group that I work with only hires on contract. My contract has been renewed 3 times so far, since I started in May 2011. While I really enjoy the people and my work, it is really frustrating not to have stability. I’m actively looking for work in the same field, conducting the same or similar research, but on a full-time permanent basis. Wish me luck because the job market is not too great right now for us folk with science degrees.
  2. Get healthier. Ever since November 2009 my health has been a tornado, to say the least. My body is in fight mode, I’m always sick. I’m sure my health concerns will emerge in my blogging but, in short, I’m not healthy. I could have said that I wanted to “lose weight” or “get active”, which I do and in working towards better health I no doubt will, but that isn’t the point. The point is to be healthy. I have several risk factors for chronic disease and I am very young. It is about time I became in control of my health; this is an ongoing struggle.
  3. De-clutter. I live at home and my bedroom happens to be the smallest in the house. When I was in school, I was too busy studying and stressing about assignments and exams to let the clutter bother me. I spent quite a fair deal of my time studying in libraries on campus or at cafes (Second Cup, how I heart thee) and when I got home I did not want to lift a finger re-organizing my room. It is not dirty and it doesn’t smell, but it is definitely cluttered. Now that I have more free time on my hands, and I’m spending more time at home, the clutter is really getting to me.
  4. Run a half marathon. I’ve always wanted to do this. The pictures I’ve seen of runners sprinting through the finish line just seems like such a liberating and exhilarating experience. I’m not in any physical shape to run the stairs without getting winded, let alone running a half marathon. It would be such an accomplishment for me to even get close to running 21 km.
  5. Be debt free (& save some dough). As a recent graduate I have student debt. It sucks. My boyfriend and I have plans to invest in a home, to get married, to travel, and to just live life. It is hard to save money when most of what we could save goes into paying off our debts.
  6. Go skydiving. For about 4 years now I’ve dreamt of jumping off a plane… ‘nuff said 🙂
  7. Blog regularly (& honestly). Before this blog, I kept a blog about my disordered eating and it was really hard for me to blog regularly and be completely honest about my feelings and eating habits. I would never lie in my posts, but I definitely didn’t share the ‘whole picture’ because I was embarrassed and ashamed at my downfalls and failures. I don’t know where this blog will end up but I’m keepin’ it kosher.
  8. Fundraise for the Weekend to End Women’s Cancers. I blogged about signing up for the 10th annual, 2012 walk. My boyfriend and I will be doing the walk together and we each need to raise $2000 to be able to participate in the walk. It would be great if we could, together, fundraise $5000 and exceed our cumulative threshold by 20%.
  9. Read more. When I was in University much of what I was read I was told to read. And most of the time what I read were textbooks or lengthy scientific journal articles. I’ve always enjoyed a good book. For my birthday this year, my sister and brother-in-law bought me a Kobo e-reader so this is a perfect opportunity to cozy up with a good book.
  10. Re-learn French. Je veux parle francais. (I likely made a mistake there).  In high school, I took core French all four years. In Ontario, it is not required to study French past grade 9 but highschools offered a core French class every year for those interested. When I started University, I didn’t use a lick of my French and since then I’ve lost that je ne sais quoi. I really want to rekindle my appreciation for the French language this year.
  11. Experiment with a gluten-free diet. My boyfriend is gluten intolerant. In fact, he may be celiac but for us to be entirely sure he’d have to reintroduce gluten into his diet for the diagnostic tests to pick up on it. He has been gluten-free for about 8 months now and he feels a million times better than ever, so reintroducing gluten into his diet is not an option. I’d like to experiment with gluten-free recipes during this year, and maybe even limit gluten in my diet.
  12. Become a Certified Associate in Project Management. The CAPM designation was created for individuals who are interested in the Project Managment Professional (PMP) designation but who do not have enough project managment experience to be eligible to complete the PMP designation…people like me 🙂 I’ve purchased the material required and have been “studying”…ehm… in preparation for the CAPM exam.

Wow! Looks like I’m going to have quite a busy year.

Wish me luck!!!

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Caught up in a name

This week Toronto (and the GTA) got its very first real snow fall. Crazy, eh?

I definitely felt that the ‘Christmas Spirit’ wasn’t as it usually was this year. It just hasn’t been as festive… I had a very low key holiday this year – which is fine by me, I needed to relax.

I did catch myself thinking about what I want this blog to be about over the past few days. My first blog was about overcoming my emotional and disordered eating. It really got me into blogging and it allowed me to express myself, even though very few (or, maybe no one) read the posts. The problem with that blog, I found, was that it forced me to deal with my irrational eating habits head on and I don’t think that I was quite ready to do that at that time so the pleasure of blogging was taken away. Plus the thought about blogging about my feelings and emotions about food quickly became a source of anxiety. It was a sign that I had to give up that blog until maybe I was ready to really deal with my problem in a public forum.

With a name like “I’d Rather Sleep” – which I came up with when I had a creative itch (really late at night) and really just wanted to write – I feel like I can blog about whatever I feel like, but my inclination is to blog about what I’m most passionate about (and what I most struggle with) and that is food and body image. Does the blog name relate to the topic? Perhaps…some days I sure would rather sleep than deal with my emotions that force me to eat…but I don’t to get too caught up in a name.

We are only 4 sleeps away from New Years, so we’ll see what 2012 brings for me, my health, and this blog…

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Takin’ it easy

Yesterday…errr, it’s 1:44 AM Saturday so it wouldn’t be ‘yesterday’ anymore…on Thursday, I went to the gym.

It felt great.

At first I was really dreading the idea. But I had packed my gym bag and tossed it in the car the night before with the determination that the next morning I’d hit the gym. When I woke up in the morning, I had a nervousness inside. It was weird, like I was going in the first day at a new job. I gave my boyfriend a wake up and we hit the gym together.

We did 30 minutes on the elliptical at a steady heart rate. He is more fit than me so while I was huffing and puffing, focusing on breathing, he was chatting away. His company was nice. Then we did some weights, focusing mostly on the back muscles for no particular rhyme or reason.

I had decided that I would go to the gym today…err, Friday… too but I didn’t end up going because my leg, shoulder, back and core muscles were feeling a little tight and I didn’t want to over do it. Building new habits is hard, so I’m going to take it easy. I don’t want to get discouraged.

Bed time? I think so…

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These legs were made for walkin’…

…and that’s just what they’ll do.

Yeap, I’m a little bit corny but hey its me 🙂

(and if you’re getting flashbacks of Jessica Simpson in daisy dukes and cow-girl boots, you’re welcome!)

Through an initiative at my current workplace, I have signed up for the Weekend to End Women’s Cancers walk in September 2012. The 2012 walk is the 10th annual walk organized by the Princess Margaret Foundation and it is being tooted as the walk to walk…

I haven’t really posted photos of myself on here but I will tell you that I struggle with disordered eating and I’m not in good shape. I have an undergraduate degree from the University of Toronto in the health sciences and work at a cancer survivorship centre in Toronto and I am very passionate about health and about cancer. It was a natural choice for me to opt-in to participating in the 10th annual walk.

Now that it has sunk in a little bit, I’m starting to get anxious about this walk.

The walk is two days, and over the two days participants walk 60 km. Six-Zero. SIXTY. That is a lot of… a lot of distance.

Now what? 


Holy crow. I said it. /ˈeksərˌsīz/

And really, it’s about friggen time. My GP has been reminding me every time I visit her that it would be a good idea. She flips back in my chart to a time when I was quite physically active and had no complaints, and just felt better about myself in general.

Last year, in support of my weight loss efforts (ehm “efforts”)  my boyfriend bought me a gym membership. I used it quite a bit on and off over the summer but haven’t been in there since my sister’s wedding in July. I think it’s time that I took advantage of the membership

*big breath* 

This is going to be one heck of a challenge for me, but it is for a good cause so I’m up for it.

And of course, I’ll blog about it too.
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Counting sheep.




It is kind of late in the GTA – it is after 11 PM – and I’m up. Not doing anything in particular either…

Checking emails. Watching random YouTube videos. Doodling on my notepad. Texting. Sipping on a smoothie. Reading the news. Painting my nails a sexy red. Thinking about doing some work so that I can meet a 1 PM deadline tomorrow.

{image courtesy of Bob Jagendorf:}